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They always say you see your whole life flash before you right before you die.


Maybe thats why nothing flashed before me because I wasn't going to die. Does that make sense?


The 2nd thought that came right when the airbag exploded in front of my face was "now how am I going to tell my parents about this?"


I was quite surprised that I can think of two things so fast within like 1 second. I think I am a genius or something. Oh yes the the guy who invented the airbag deserves a pat on the back. And I am too young to experience the despair and doomed feeling before probable death. Damn.


I don't think I have to say what was the 1st thought.

End of Singapore Society module. It was pretty interesting not your usual boring history and propaganda thingy. It gave me a much clearer picture of what really happened in Singapore's history(a lot of interesting stuff like how LKY believed in stopping lowly-educated women to reproduce and motivating highly-educated women to reproduce more as he believes in eugenics). If you can't decide which SS module to do, just do this. And do it under Dr. Pereira. He is one good joker. He teaches well too if I may add.


Even at the exam he just HAD to make some jokes haha e.g.

"You are advised not to possess any unauthorized materials. No handphones, no pagers.. now pager.. what on earth is a pager?"


It really cracked me up.. he has this damn funny expression to accompany his jokes too. Some of the other teachers were also smiling/laughing. Oh well it is the end.


Most of the time I am just joking I don't mean what I say. This is how you would like it to be anyway isn't it..

Actually, maybe not.

I was discussing with my friend on changing a person.


She told me it is impossible to change a person's character. She said girls from all-girls schools are vastly different from mixed schools. The way they behave and all that stuff. It just sticks with them. I felt differently.


The person(lets just call her K) that I am talking about likes to make use of people. I believe that if I let the person make use of enough, maybe the person would sort of realize that it is wrong of her to keep taking advantage of people and won't have a kick out of being in control anymore. Just keep feeding her till she gets bored of it and hoping that she would change.


I guess I was kind of naive. Maybe when the right time comes.. the tit-for-tat strategy will be employed.

I got a cousin who is a teacher, one is a pilot, another is a doctor and two or three are married to scholars.


Coming from a very well-established secondary school, naturally I know lots of people who are very successful. I just met one of them the other day who is at Cornell, then theres another going to Carnegie Mellon, one going to Harvard and the list goes on and on.


Of course there are those that I know who don't do that well academically but nonetheless still damn smart and they have a family business to take over and yeah their futures are pretty secure.


There is this pressure for me to do well. I mean, I want to do well. I just hope I have what it takes. I have this talent for being average in everything without doing anything much but I don't seem to excel in any particular thing. I can pass anything with like totally minimal effort but I can't score damn well even if I put in lots of effort.


It is getting quite annoying.

In my tutorial class, there is one guy driving BMW, another driving a Camry, one more driving a Rav4, one driving a Vios, one driving a Getz.. it is crazy. Thats 6 out of 21 people who have their own car. Really atrocious. Then in my lecture one other guy drives a Hyundai Sonata and another drives a mod-ed Lancer (I think, hard to tell).


Note to self : better freaking work harder and stop slacking or live forever in jealousy/envy.



















Class unity in parking together.

I feel damn freaking cheated. First french test 93.5/100. Second 82/100. Average is 87.75. And I got a A-? Like hello????? 30 people in class also bell curve? Wtf?? And you might ask how do I know it is a bell curve? Because the next person after me got like 70+ average and she got B+. The no.1 guy got A+ and his average is like 93.


Next semester I am just going to steamroll through everyone else I swear. Damn pissed off. Cheated of 0.5 CAP. I need to go smash something.

.. that I will always be there for you.

The worst thing ever is not to discover that you are made use of, but the disappointment and sadness that you feel when all along you have this better image of the other person and the person doesn't turn out to who you think he/she is.



I hope I am not wrong.

I should make a post just to sort of, you know, commemorate today, like everyone else.


I made the pledge to keep my car tires inflated on the LiveEarth thing to try to make a difference in the global climate. I mean afterall, we should care for our planet. Life is such a wonderful thing. Imagine all the poor animals that will die due to the change in climate.


Ok right now some of you would be like, "RIGHT.. gerald goh caring about the planet.. IMPOSSIBLE.. hahhahaha."


And sad to say, you are right. The only damn reason that I am going to keep my car tires inflated is because petrol prices are SKYHIGH at the moment. After countless years of education and being influenced by the world around me, I have developed such appalling individualism. I am not ashamed to admit that I am individualistic, self-centred etc etc because this is what I have been brought up to be. Capitalism, globalization and education that I have went through, my god, they have turned me into what I am. In today's world, it is all about money. Lets be honest with ourselves. Which girl doesn't want a Chanel bag to carry around? Which guy doesn't want a Ferrari to drive in? Our life goals probably revolve around earning a million bucks by 30, living in a condo by 35, having membership at SICC by 40, stop deforestation by 45.. ERR? (this is the time when you can imagine the expression of the deer caught in the spotlight)


One whole previous century of damage done to generations of people, and if you think one major concert on 070707 and wearing green on this day are going to change things you need a reality check. Those corporations on the Forbes Top 100 or Fortune 500 etc etc should start shelling out MORE money to build solar panels, research to develop electric/hydrogen powered cars at a cheaper price and the works instead of buying all the Learjets and Gulfstreams to ferry their executives around.


Meanwhile, I will start switching off my com and all appliances before I leave my house. And yours too.

It didn't mean you can't talk to me about sad things. I was just talking about myself being an introvert.

No I am not in a suicidal mood I assure you but after all these years, I still don't know what I am living for. I mean I had fun, faced and overcame(actually I avoided most but yeah) challenges, experienced new scenery and feelings etc etc but I feel quite hollow still. I am quite sure it isn't due to my lack of community service though. Oh I only think about this once a year at around the same time too.


Life is kind of messy at the moment, so no events planned for this year. No obligations to buy presents this year. Quite ironic that this is the only year that has nothing planned, but of course if you REALLY CARE then absolutely anything will do.


Cheers.